想家

家，是心的栖息地，

心，累了，伤了，闷了，

一回到家就没事了。

家，是人的充电器。

看见家里的一砖一瓦，

虽然不是什么富丽堂皇的装潢；

看见家里的烂沙发，

更不是什么华丽的意大利名设计沙发。

但，躺下去的感觉胜过紫禁城里的龙椅。

昨晚，

爸妈打电话给我，

他们的第一句话令我于心有愧。

“哇，你几天没有跟我们联络了？

我们想你想到要哭了你知道吗？”

虽然，

语气是开玩笑的，

可是，

经过我的大脑分析后，

我感到惭愧。

真的很惭愧。

因为这两个星期的情绪波动很大。

应该说，我就像坐在过山车一样。

情绪的波动，

让我迷失了最初的我。

我很想告诉他们事实，

只是，

不想让他们又为我担心什么。

毕竟，好多了。

我很想跟他们说：

“我也很想你们，我累了。我要回家，却归不得。”

以现状来看，

我应该没有得回家了。

累了，突然累了。

可是，只要我想家，

想着那个我不需戴面具的地方，

我会比较好一点。

还有两个星期，

我会耐心的等待。

爸妈，对不起，

我也想你们，

只是我近几个礼拜有很多事情处理，

一天过一天，

不知不觉地

延迟了跟你们联络的那通电话。

只想说，

我的心永远向着北方海上的一个美丽小岛。

素食先生继续吃菜吧！ooishi desu ne!

素食先生或许因为吃菜吃到腻了，又想尝试新事物，想转转口味，吃牛扒，是顶级的日本和牛扒。于是，便去了一间著名的高级餐厅那里去吃牛扒。

当高级餐厅里的服务生把那盘期待已久的和牛扒捧出来时，他突然因为嗅到牛肉的味道而感到反胃。或许，是吃素吃太久了吧，一时接受不了。

可是，有决心的他还是想大胆尝试，叫那服务生在捧上来。

一刀切下去，看见半熟的牛扒里的血腥，他又有点恶心了。可是，既然点了，为何不试一下呢？或许这次试了以后，发现自己原来爱吃肉，有一个理由去远离那些厌倦的菜哦！

于是，他把叉在叉子上，还有淡淡鲜血色的牛扒放进嘴里咬了几下，发现原来和牛的口感并没想像中的那么完美。牛，始终会有牛的腥味，真是不明白，为何会有那么爱吃牛扒的人。

素食先生以为自己找到了一个很坚固的理由去接受肉类，因为他认为是时候跟菜来个了断。可是，他绕了一大圈才发现，原来，他根本就只爱吃菜！

素食先生最终把咬在嘴里的牛扒吞下肚子。然后说：“不好意思，你还是清掉它吧！它，没有我想象中的那么好吃。。。啊，还有，请为我准备一份龙虾沙拉，还是沙拉最有营养，因为爱吃菜的人永远都是最健康，最容光焕发的！”

“可是，先生，你吃了牛扒，觉得不好吃，为何还要吞了下去？”，服务生一脸充满疑问的样子问道。

“因为，我想让这小块的牛扒提醒我，心想的，想要的，不一定是真实的。谢谢。。。”，素食先生笑着回答。

服务生当然不会明白这个莫名其妙的素食先生，但实际上素食先生自己是最清楚他自己的口味。他，脸上带着淡淡的微笑，自己对自己说：“我，还是比较喜欢吃菜，继续素食。肉类，还是留下次吧！”。

Je veux ton amour, et je veux ta revanche, je ne veux pas être des amis.

It's so ironic that I always love this song of Lady Gaga..."Bad Romance" is so catchy and I fell in love with this song since the first time I listen to it on Youtube. After listening to it a few times, I could sing along so freely. Lady Gaga is a genius. Love at first listening...

I find the lyrics are very creative because it's a special way to express how much you want somebody's love. The lyrics express the feeling that indicates love is "all or nothing at all". If you love a person, love his/her everything, including his/her weaknesses. A bad romance could only be written when love is not passionate enough to accommodate the weaknesses of his/her another half.

The music video is also very special, Lady Gaga's bizzare outfit amazes me. Here's the link of the video. P/S: sorry, I don't know how to embed a video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrO4YZeyl0I

Below are some parts of the lyrics which I like very much:

I want your ugly

I want your disease

I want your everything as long as it's free

...

I want your drama

...

I want your love and I want your revenge

You and me could write a bad romance

I want your love and all your lovers' revenge

...

I want your horror

I want your design

Cause you're a criminal as long as you're mine

...

I want your psycho

...

I want your love and

I want your revenge

I want your love

I don't want to be friends

...

This song really applies to me so well. I want your disease, I want your drama, I want your psycho...It's like I know that one day these lyrics would apply to me, funny right?

Lately, songs are my friends. I really appreciate their lyrics so deeply. Just like this song "2 is better than 1" sung by Taylor Swift and Boys like Girls. Really meaningful lyrics.

I hope those people who are unsure of love will gradually realize that 2 is indeed better than 1...

Again, here's the link for the music video f this great song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E231TF4CzU0

讨厌。自己

为什么我那么草食？

婆妈到不行，终日思前想后，想来想去什么都是空。。。

能不能发疯一下？面对自己的感觉，不要用头脑思考行吗？？

Unprecedented things happening on me

Age and time must have changed me a lot, well, gradually. Sometimes we do realise our change but most of the time we just live our life until people come to you and tell you "Hey, you have changed!". Physical changes are, of course, easily noticed, or at least, easier to be noticed than the changes on our thoughts.

I find myself changed a lot ever since I left home and came to the university. A change could be either good or bad. I think change is a part of life and it only stops when you are not living anymore. I have to accept the changes happening to me and anyone around me because it is not my choice to choose whether to accept or to reject them. Most of the time, they just happen without your knowledge, until you realize and start to ask yourself "Why is this happening?". And, I have been asking myself this question lately. I noticed some changes I have yet to experience.

First of all, why am I always so tired? 24 units in one semester is very usual to me, it should not be a problem. I just don't know why I'm tired and what is the cause of my fatigue. Perhaps 8 am classes everyday except Friday? Ya, maybe, as I have problems with waking up in the early mornings and I crave for sleep a lot.

Then, the feeling of falling for someone often surfaces. I always consider myself as "icy", icy in love, but not in personality. But, lately I start to feel that my ice is melting as North pole is melting due to global warming. Heart warming alert?

无题

酸酸的心，是否代表着自己在埋没自己的感觉？

你的声音在笑，我的心在动摇，

你的快乐，是我穿的保护色，

酸酸的感觉，表示我不是真正的快乐？

微笑地祝君安好，并不代表可以大方地面对现实，

但我可以在时光里检验自己是不是很孤寂。

人，

很可笑，

自己都不知道自己要的是什么；

或者说，

有时候是自己知道自己要什么，但却因为心里的另一个呐喊在作祟

而未能说出心声。

应该说，是我不会爱吧？

My first Japanese lesson

Today I went for my first Japanese lesson. It's actually the third lesson as it started last week, but I only managed to register on last Wednesday night, so this makes it my first lesson. As expected, we are behind the others, lucky to say, they did not proceed far, at least, we could still catch up with what they have learned.

Like all other languages, we need to start by learning the alphabets, or known as Hiragana in Japanese. But, Hiragana is not really alphabets as ABC in English. It's something more like "characters" of sound. Each Hiragana has its own pronunciation. Learning the Hiragana includes learning how to write the characters (as in Mandarin) and also its pronunciation, because Japanese words are constructed based on Hiragana, for example, "watashi" is constructed from "wa", "ta" and "shi", same thing goes for "sakura" is built from the Hiragana's of "sa", "ku" and "ra". Learning to write the characters reminded me of the nostalgic primary school Standard 1, where we need to learn all the basics in Mandarin characters stroke by stroke.

Besides, we were also exposed to the simple, but important greetings that are required daily. For instance,

ohio gozaimasu - おはようございます (good morning),

konnichiwa - こんにちは (good afternoon),

konbanwa - こんばんは (good evening) and

oyasuminasai - おやすみなさい (good night).

I have quite a lot to learn in order to catch up with the lesson. I have 71 Hiragana's to learn! Better work harder...wish me luck!

My new year resolution for 2010

It's 2nd Jan 2010 now, but I haven't really wished my visitors a Happy New Year! May you guys have a great 2010 and be well and healthy always. I celebrated my new year at Bukit Bintang with laughing gang of Penang. The countdown was filled with laughter, as pictured by the name "laughing gang". I hope 2010 would be a great year for everyone, with better opportunities in every aspect of life!

As suggested by many motivators, each new year should be accompanied by a new year resolution. By right, it should be done before the new year's arrival, but I did not figure out any goals in 2009, as I was still in a slacky mood due to the sudden change in my academic stuffs. Ah, let's not talk about that sickening change... @@

Anyway, I do realise that new year resolutions are important to keep us going, but trust me, I have never ever done any new year resolution listing before, so, I am going to do that for the first time of my life, in 2010. Well, it's a nice year to start right? At least, the year sounds great, twenty-ten... It's never too late to make a change.

A new year resolution need not be a very challenging one, nor it should be a very complicated one. Simplicity is the secret in making great new year resolutions, and consistency is the recipe of success. A new year resolution is a way to remind yourself to spend time wisely in order to achieve your goals, so that you do not waste a whole useful year's time on nothing.

My new year resolution is simple. I aim to:

1. Improve on my CGPA to its previous level, as it did come down for the previous semester.

2. Improve on my physique by making it to the gym 3 times a week and avoid meal skipping.

3. Improve on my sleep. I want to sleep at 12 every night... (otherwise if I have got outings and PARTY!!! LOL...)

4. Learn more on share tradings.


These four statements above would be my new year resolutions for 2010. My friends, please support me and feel free to remind me when I deviated from these aims! Everyone, let's work hard for a better 2010... XOXO