Friday, March 26, 2010

Obsession

I'm so obsessed to military-inspired style. Although it is not the latest style but it's definitely a good one to follow. It brings out the toughness in you and yet you don't look cocky.

I'm starting my collection of military-inspired attire. This is my new obsession. @@

Sunday, March 21, 2010

最初的感动

星期日的下午,如一般的炎热,没什么两样。疯狂了一天,是时候安守本分,做该做的事。今天终于完成了两份的报告及一份的作业。午餐时间没事做,便一边吃汉堡包,一边看戏。最近都不追连续剧了,所以随心地开了一部旧连续剧的其中一集来解闷。《Charmed》是一部我很喜欢的连续剧,在2006年播完,总共有8季。故事说着三姐妹是传说中最强的魔法师,在得到了魔法以后如何在生活与任务上找到平衡点。虽然她们都有魔术,但各自一样面对自己生活上的问题,与凡人没什么不同;一样得面对生老病死的过程。我便开了第一季的第17集来看。

这集说的事她们为了逃避一个恶魔的追杀而用了一个魔咒,穿越时空而回到了小时候。故事的画面有着淡淡的感动。她们回到过去是看见自己小时候的那一幕真的很特别,而且很感动。你能够想象自己会到过去,然后现在的你跟小时候的你说话的情景吗?那,你又会对你自己说些什么?

我也很想向她们一样的魔术,可以施用魔咒,穿越时空,回到过去。只是,看来魔咒应该不能成真,因为我想回到太多的时空了,它会不知去向。

我想回到那个时候,我还是个婴儿的时候,只会东张西望,只会听见声音而听不见语言的时候。因为那时的生活不用听见别人说的话,好的,坏的全都不用听。那时的自己也没有任何想法,更加不知道自己是存在的。

在长大一点,婴儿的我长大了些,变成了小孩子的我。妈说我很乖。因为以前家境不好,所以不能拥有很多的玩具。每当我看见喜欢的玩具时,妈就会叫我把玩具握在手中,然后到数十下,数完以后就走,而我也没有闹脾气。我怀念那个容易满足的我。

我也想回到是小学生的时代,因为那时的我很天真。那时没有要求,只有很多愚蠢的想法。只想快快离开学校,可以不用做功课,不用再怕被老师骂,被老师罚。我怀念那个笨蛋又与世无争的我,被级任老师选为学长而伤心的我(也应该说是很没有自信, 但我不怀念缺乏信心的我)。我怀念婆婆喂我吃饭的中午(不是因为我依赖性强,是因为婆婆看不过眼我吃得很慢),不是因为有人伺候,而是因为那很温馨。

我怀念中学的我,虽然渐渐懂事,但不至于自大;虽然渐渐叛逆,但还是很清楚自己的去向(或许我那时也没有去向,只是沿着直路一直走下去,但现在已经快要走到分叉路口了。)。我怀念那个坚决的我,那个可以不睡觉而势必把书读完的我(怀念那份坚持,不是不睡觉的作风)。我怀念那个单身,但不会不甘寂寞的我。

过去,越来越美丽,只因为现状的衬托。我很想找回最初的感动。不知道,多年以后,我会怀念现在的一些什么呢?



Thursday, March 18, 2010

梦。。。不落


很久没有写部落格了,因为最近没有什么特别的情绪;最近都比较平稳,因为学业上的事已经快完成了,只是,我发现有一堆叠得像台北101一样高的笔记等着我去耐心熟读。嗨,这种情形让我麻木了,反正我也没心情去翻这些“我超爱的笔记”。

说到台北101,令我想起我们原本计划的有声有色的年底台湾之旅,不到一天就没了,因为我年底可能会要进行实验。过后,妈又给我一个像风一样的惊喜:六月的香港之旅!也一样没有了,因为姑姑在那时举办婚礼。。。嗨,我很没有旅行命的咯。。。要去旅行业没得去,还好有个Redang 来安抚我的失望,因为那里有我最爱的海,而且我们可以在那里疯狂地拍照,拍下我们即将慢慢被摧毁的青春。。。

最近真的发现自己越来越迷恋时尚,也变得很注意自己的身材,嗨,糟了,越来越自恋了。无时无刻都在向要怎样才会把自己的衣着变得更有自我风格。所以最近我浏览的网站都是一些与时尚有关的网站,阅读的都是一些潮男的部落格。

这样的生活从什么时候开始,我也不太清楚,不过我还记得它开始的原因。自从赵明福的死因不明而引起很多民愤时,来自泰国的Pornthip(报纸的译名:蓬蝶) Rojanasunand 负责检查他的死因。当然原因与赵明福无关,只是当时我注意到蓬蝶的发型很庞克,而且是被染成红色的,根本就不像是一个 forensic pathologist (我想不到怎样翻译,哈哈)的形象。过后,我爸从报纸上阅读了她的访问。爸说她的志愿其实是要当一名发型设计师,可是最后没有当上,所以也只好把自己的发型弄得时髦一些,好让自己可以了了未达到的志愿。就是她的这番想法照亮了我。

回想起来,自己都一直在发明星梦。从小就希望自己可以当歌星,因为自己很喜欢唱歌,而且对音乐也很敏感。就因为这样就去学钢琴。可是当时还小,不会想,学了一下就放弃了。现在超后悔。如果我继续学下去,那我现在还有一技之长;不想现在这样什么都不会。前几年,因为迷上“美国下一位名模”的真人秀而爱上了模界。虽然那个真人秀只关系到女模特儿,但我真的很羡慕,也很向往模特儿的工作。我觉得人的青春很短,而模特儿则能用他们宝贵的青春来赚钱,而且在赚钱的当儿,他们的青春同时被拍成了照片而“永生化”了。

发梦都梦到自己是男名模;走过杂志摊看见自己的脸出现在很多本杂志封面上,在街上走着看见自己的平面广告被放上街边的大荧幕上,走在商场上看见自己代言的香水品牌,看Youtube时看见自己走在名设计师的服装秀的舞台上,展现自己与服装的魅力,迷死全场的观众。。。哈哈哈。。。

* 快点起来,不要发梦了!*

所以,我的明星梦一直都在,只是我没有勇气去追求它。蓬蝶没当上发型设计师的原因我不太清楚,难道她那时也没有勇气去追梦吗?可是,就如她所说的,她也还可以做一些她自己喜欢的事来达成自己的梦想。所以我那时就开始慢慢的做自己喜欢的事,哈哈。开始认真健身,开始注意自己的衣着,开始观察别人的时尚理念,还有。。。开始爱上拍照,是被拍的那个,不是去帮别人拍哦,哈哈。总之,就是把自己的生活给“模特儿化”,时时刻刻都尽量让自己好看。

就这样的,慢慢就变成一个习惯,每天都会浏览潮男的部落格,开始注意春夏季及秋冬季的新风格,自己活在自己的梦想中,逃离现实的我,那个想要当生物化学研究者的我。最近发现自己对生物化学的东西越来越厌倦了。面对那些烦人的报告及什么基因的呈现(gene expression, 我不懂我的翻译是对还是错,哈哈),更让我反复自问自己是不是选错了科目?是不是该放胆去尝试别的行列,比如我迷恋的模界及娱乐圈?可是,我真的没有勇气。这样的尝试太恐怖了,就像用我的前途去赌一场。如果我赢了,我会很开心,因为我真的可以当上模特儿或歌星,实现我的梦想;如果我输了,我就一无是处,半天吊。

前几天,银问我为什么不放胆尝试。她说趁年轻时快点拿出勇气去尝试,可能会有意外的收获,就算失败了也不会变成以后的遗憾。我有想过,岁月不饶人,只是一直都提不起勇气去踏出第一步。就算要踏出第一步,也得先把自己的身材练好和把自己的皮肤调理好了再说。

你有梦吗?每个人都有梦,只是,有多少人会那么勇敢?你有勇气去追求你的梦想吗?

大家提起勇气,向自己的梦向前冲吧!


Wednesday, March 3, 2010

The UGLY diffrence

Lately, I find myself very into the world of fashion. Actually, after all these years, I always pay attention to it but I didn’t really try to apply them in my real life. I was a fan of ANTM, but due to my recent busy life and also the lack-of-freshness in the show, I stopped following. I love the fashion industry for its glamour; it always looks grand and elegant. Until then, the previous shopping sessions for CNY new clothes has sort of triggered my interest to get involved in fashion and I started to view men’s fashion blogs. From there, I am exposed to the glamour of the industry, and I am very attracted to it, I just don’t know why. Luckily I am not rich, or else I might succumb into it.

Those blogs that I am following feature high-end fashion brands like you guys know of, for instance, CK, D&G, Armani, Burberry and LV (yes, they have menswear line as well). Besides that, there are many other brands which are less common in Malaysia, like, Dsquared2, Balmain, Lanvin, Bottega Veneta and more. What attract me is not only their super expensive prices for even a piece of small accessories like an armlet or a necklace, the way they sell their products to the world. Attractive ad campaigns for each seasons; some features elegance and glamour, others focus on high sex appeal.

Dsquared2 2010 spring/summer


Dolce & Gabbana


Bottega Veneta

Regardless of what their main focus is, each photo for the ad campaign is a fine piece of artwork. These photos remind me of my long forsaken dream of being a model. Haha, ya, that’s my dream, forever it will be, though I know it’s hard to achieve. Besides that, their new collection has become an obsession for the media and also fashionists all over the world. People are so keen in attending their runway shows. I just can’t stop wondering; is there really a flood of rich people out there? It’s unbelievable how these high-end clothing companies succeed in luring people into buying their products? Too many rich shopaholics around the world? Or people just can’t resist the lure of a luxurious life?

Despite of my fascination towards these high-end luxury goods, my rationality remains in me. Fashion is a fast-changing industry with two seasons (spring-summer and fall-winter) in each year, and if a person were to follow the trends for each season, not to mention to follow the trends strictly, he would be spending a fortune on clothing and accessories alone. These clothes are not cheap, they worth more than the monthly salary of a general clerk or janitor. Amazed by how expensive they are? Yes, extremely and unexpectedly expensive, and yet, there are people who can afford them.

Well, it’s a big world out there, ain’t it? People could be so affluent that they could afford a Hermes Birkin which could cost up to a price of more than USD 100,000, carrying it around the city; people could also be desperately poor until they could not even get enough of their basic requirements of life: clean water, food (not to mention nutritious food like meat and fish) and a shelter. This is how big our global social gap could be, what an ugly difference.

That’s why, I am grateful of what I have, although I am not rich and I certainly can't afford any of these brands mentioned above, but at least I have enough nutritious food and plenty of clean water and a place to stay (excluding the hot air in my house!).

Hope you guys feel the same way as well, be happy of what you've got. =]