Tuesday, December 29, 2009

HATRED

I hate UKM!!!!!!

H A T E H A T E H A T E H A T E...............

sophisticated science subjects in freaking BM is a mess...

Sunday, December 20, 2009

离岛

又是时候离开这个岛了,
好想依旧平时的习惯,继续睡觉,日上三竿也无所谓。
只是,少了一份睡意,多了一份清醒。

醒来看看外面的景物,
一切都如往常。
喜鹊为了生活儿到处飞;
蜥蜴很悠闲地在地上晒太阳;
我也如常地刷牙洗脸,第一时间喝蛋白粉麦片当早餐,
只是,少了一份平静,多了一份不舍。

算了一下,
这已经是第 n 次离岛了,
只是,少了一份坚强,多了一份情感。

每次离岛,
心情总是沉重的,
就像不懂事的小孩得不到心爱的玩具一样,
即无奈,又只能低头。
只是,少了一份幼稚,多了一份成熟。

有时想着,
自己真的那么爱家吗?
答案:好像不是,却不能完全说不是。
只是,少了一份肯定,多了一份质疑。

觉得自己很不成熟,
因为离开,可以让自己成长,
为自己的前途铺路,
但自己的心却呐喊不舍,
很不得体。
只是,少了一份温暖,多了一份忧虑。

人的心,
总是想着家的吧?
那,我的不舍也是人之常情。

只是,离岛令我觉得好像失去了一些什么,
不过,我还是原来的我。

时间不早了,
饭也快吃完了,
就在此向这可爱的岛道别。

八个星期后,我会再回来!

Friday, December 18, 2009

伯乐

今天是公共假期,爸妈都清闲,所以今早一起吃点心当早餐。虽然说是吃早餐啦,但其实也不早了,将近午餐时间了。吃了点心就去拜神。今天难得下雨,所以天气不会酷热,谢天谢地。


今天算是家庭日,午餐也跟爸妈吃。吃着午餐的时候,谈到了 Prof. Yuen 。妈说他很欣赏我,叫我得好好珍惜欣赏自己的人。


有谁不希望自己被肯定,被欣赏?这么多年以来,身边出现的每一个人都可能是我的伯乐。而这么多次,自己瞎猜的人都一一令我失望。每一次的机会总换来一个假希望。


说的也是,古人有云:“世有伯乐,然后有千里马。千里马常有;但伯乐不常有。”,始终,要遇到一个欣赏自己的人已经是一件难事了,何况是一个想提拔你的人呢?看来,我下个学期的假期应该安守本分,虚心向学,在他的实验室工作久一点。这样,自己可以增加知识,丰富经验。他对我总算宽容,而他的宽容令我受宠若惊,更让我感到惭愧,因为自己的惰性竟然强过自己的上进心。不可以,我必须改过我的观点。这样我就可以过着很充实的假期。我很期待下一个假期,也希望教授他真的是我的伯乐,可以在茫茫的前路点燃一盏指引方向的明灯。


但在爱情上,如果我也可以有个伯乐从旁指点,细心教诲,那该有多好?


就像林宥嘉的《伯乐》里的歌词所唱的:“爱你的那一个,伤你的那一个,谁才是你爱情中的伯乐?放弃了这一个,然后等待着下一个,最后哪一个让你最舍不得?”。


可是,我没爱过,也没伤过,那又怎样知道谁是我“爱情中的伯乐”?


所以说,爱情真不是我的囊中物。还是自己爱自己来得比较实际。

Monday, December 7, 2009

Random

A friend asked me how come I do not write any posts lately and I answered this blog is only active during the semesters. But, it occurs to me that it's a little bit unfair to this blog of mine, haha, as it usually engulfs my rage and sadness but seldom expresses my happiness.

It's time for me to write in English, because I find my English is rusting nowadays. I had trouble writing a sentence to comment in a friend's blog, damn! This could be due to too much exposure to Mandarin as I have just finished watching "Beyond the Realm of Conscience" A.K.A. 宫心计 from TVB. Fascinated by the unique ancient palace language, my friends and I have been using them in our conversation in Facebook, crazy huh?

Today is not my day; I woke up at 10am and felt that I am in a low-energy state. After taking my breakfast as usual, i start to have stomach discomfort and I fell sick then. I spent my whole evening sleeping. God, the feeling sucks! I could not do anything because I feel very tired and my mind made sleeping its priority, one day has been wasted for nothing. I was supposed to workout my deltoids today. My workout has to be postponed.

Nevertheless, falling sick today makes me feel grateful, well, even though I am sick. At least, I could really rest well at home. If I were to fall sick in Bangi, I am doomed. I will be burdened by the daily chores even when I am sick. I am lucky to fall sick here. Well, that's the advantage of being at home: you will not be forsaken.^^