无题

酸酸的心，是否代表着自己在埋没自己的感觉？

你的声音在笑，我的心在动摇，

你的快乐，是我穿的保护色，

酸酸的感觉，表示我不是真正的快乐？

微笑地祝君安好，并不代表可以大方地面对现实，

但我可以在时光里检验自己是不是很孤寂。

人，

很可笑，

自己都不知道自己要的是什么；

或者说，

有时候是自己知道自己要什么，但却因为心里的另一个呐喊在作祟

而未能说出心声。

应该说，是我不会爱吧？

My first Japanese lesson

Today I went for my first Japanese lesson. It's actually the third lesson as it started last week, but I only managed to register on last Wednesday night, so this makes it my first lesson. As expected, we are behind the others, lucky to say, they did not proceed far, at least, we could still catch up with what they have learned.

Like all other languages, we need to start by learning the alphabets, or known as Hiragana in Japanese. But, Hiragana is not really alphabets as ABC in English. It's something more like "characters" of sound. Each Hiragana has its own pronunciation. Learning the Hiragana includes learning how to write the characters (as in Mandarin) and also its pronunciation, because Japanese words are constructed based on Hiragana, for example, "watashi" is constructed from "wa", "ta" and "shi", same thing goes for "sakura" is built from the Hiragana's of "sa", "ku" and "ra". Learning to write the characters reminded me of the nostalgic primary school Standard 1, where we need to learn all the basics in Mandarin characters stroke by stroke.

Besides, we were also exposed to the simple, but important greetings that are required daily. For instance,

ohio gozaimasu - おはようございます (good morning),

konnichiwa - こんにちは (good afternoon),

konbanwa - こんばんは (good evening) and

oyasuminasai - おやすみなさい (good night).

I have quite a lot to learn in order to catch up with the lesson. I have 71 Hiragana's to learn! Better work harder...wish me luck!

My new year resolution for 2010

It's 2nd Jan 2010 now, but I haven't really wished my visitors a Happy New Year! May you guys have a great 2010 and be well and healthy always. I celebrated my new year at Bukit Bintang with laughing gang of Penang. The countdown was filled with laughter, as pictured by the name "laughing gang". I hope 2010 would be a great year for everyone, with better opportunities in every aspect of life!

As suggested by many motivators, each new year should be accompanied by a new year resolution. By right, it should be done before the new year's arrival, but I did not figure out any goals in 2009, as I was still in a slacky mood due to the sudden change in my academic stuffs. Ah, let's not talk about that sickening change... @@

Anyway, I do realise that new year resolutions are important to keep us going, but trust me, I have never ever done any new year resolution listing before, so, I am going to do that for the first time of my life, in 2010. Well, it's a nice year to start right? At least, the year sounds great, twenty-ten... It's never too late to make a change.

A new year resolution need not be a very challenging one, nor it should be a very complicated one. Simplicity is the secret in making great new year resolutions, and consistency is the recipe of success. A new year resolution is a way to remind yourself to spend time wisely in order to achieve your goals, so that you do not waste a whole useful year's time on nothing.

My new year resolution is simple. I aim to:

1. Improve on my CGPA to its previous level, as it did come down for the previous semester.

2. Improve on my physique by making it to the gym 3 times a week and avoid meal skipping.

3. Improve on my sleep. I want to sleep at 12 every night... (otherwise if I have got outings and PARTY!!! LOL...)

4. Learn more on share tradings.


These four statements above would be my new year resolutions for 2010. My friends, please support me and feel free to remind me when I deviated from these aims! Everyone, let's work hard for a better 2010... XOXO

HATRED

I hate UKM!!!!!!

H A T E H A T E H A T E H A T E...............

sophisticated science subjects in freaking BM is a mess...

离岛

又是时候离开这个岛了，
好想依旧平时的习惯，继续睡觉，日上三竿也无所谓。
只是，少了一份睡意，多了一份清醒。

醒来看看外面的景物，
一切都如往常。
喜鹊为了生活儿到处飞；
蜥蜴很悠闲地在地上晒太阳；
我也如常地刷牙洗脸，第一时间喝蛋白粉麦片当早餐，
只是，少了一份平静，多了一份不舍。

算了一下，
这已经是第 n 次离岛了，
只是，少了一份坚强，多了一份情感。

每次离岛，
心情总是沉重的，
就像不懂事的小孩得不到心爱的玩具一样，
即无奈，又只能低头。
只是，少了一份幼稚，多了一份成熟。

有时想着，
自己真的那么爱家吗？
答案：好像不是，却不能完全说不是。
只是，少了一份肯定，多了一份质疑。

觉得自己很不成熟，
因为离开，可以让自己成长，
为自己的前途铺路，
但自己的心却呐喊不舍，
很不得体。
只是，少了一份温暖，多了一份忧虑。

人的心，
总是想着家的吧？
那，我的不舍也是人之常情。

只是，离岛令我觉得好像失去了一些什么，
不过，我还是原来的我。

时间不早了，
饭也快吃完了，
就在此向这可爱的岛道别。

八个星期后，我会再回来!

伯乐

今天是公共假期，爸妈都清闲，所以今早一起吃点心当早餐。虽然说是吃早餐啦，但其实也不早了，将近午餐时间了。吃了点心就去拜神。今天难得下雨，所以天气不会酷热，谢天谢地。


今天算是家庭日，午餐也跟爸妈吃。吃着午餐的时候，谈到了 Prof. Yuen 。妈说他很欣赏我，叫我得好好珍惜欣赏自己的人。


有谁不希望自己被肯定，被欣赏？这么多年以来，身边出现的每一个人都可能是我的伯乐。而这么多次，自己瞎猜的人都一一令我失望。每一次的机会总换来一个假希望。


说的也是，古人有云：“世有伯乐，然后有千里马。千里马常有；但伯乐不常有。”，始终，要遇到一个欣赏自己的人已经是一件难事了，何况是一个想提拔你的人呢？看来，我下个学期的假期应该安守本分，虚心向学，在他的实验室工作久一点。这样，自己可以增加知识，丰富经验。他对我总算宽容，而他的宽容令我受宠若惊，更让我感到惭愧，因为自己的惰性竟然强过自己的上进心。不可以，我必须改过我的观点。这样我就可以过着很充实的假期。我很期待下一个假期，也希望教授他真的是我的伯乐，可以在茫茫的前路点燃一盏指引方向的明灯。


但在爱情上，如果我也可以有个伯乐从旁指点，细心教诲，那该有多好？


就像林宥嘉的《伯乐》里的歌词所唱的：“爱你的那一个，伤你的那一个，谁才是你爱情中的伯乐？放弃了这一个，然后等待着下一个，最后哪一个让你最舍不得？”。


可是，我没爱过，也没伤过，那又怎样知道谁是我“爱情中的伯乐”？


所以说，爱情真不是我的囊中物。还是自己爱自己来得比较实际。

Random

A friend asked me how come I do not write any posts lately and I answered this blog is only active during the semesters. But, it occurs to me that it's a little bit unfair to this blog of mine, haha, as it usually engulfs my rage and sadness but seldom expresses my happiness.

It's time for me to write in English, because I find my English is rusting nowadays. I had trouble writing a sentence to comment in a friend's blog, damn! This could be due to too much exposure to Mandarin as I have just finished watching "Beyond the Realm of Conscience" A.K.A. 宫心计 from TVB. Fascinated by the unique ancient palace language, my friends and I have been using them in our conversation in Facebook, crazy huh?

Today is not my day; I woke up at 10am and felt that I am in a low-energy state. After taking my breakfast as usual, i start to have stomach discomfort and I fell sick then. I spent my whole evening sleeping. God, the feeling sucks! I could not do anything because I feel very tired and my mind made sleeping its priority, one day has been wasted for nothing. I was supposed to workout my deltoids today. My workout has to be postponed.

Nevertheless, falling sick today makes me feel grateful, well, even though I am sick. At least, I could really rest well at home. If I were to fall sick in Bangi, I am doomed. I will be burdened by the daily chores even when I am sick. I am lucky to fall sick here. Well, that's the advantage of being at home: you will not be forsaken.^^