等待

花蕾在严冬悄悄地里去以后慢慢地把头抬起来，感受早春的气息，吸收大地的养分及春天的阳光。

花蕾先把自己埋没于绿叶之中，耐心地等待绽放的那天。

我，也会有绽放的一天。。。

虽然我可以

纵使告诉自己要耐心等待，要享受当下，可是，一直都不能专心于自己的催眠之中，快要沉睡时，就会有可恶的杂音阻止我进入睡眠状态。

毕竟，我是期待的，期待她的出现，期待我的手指不再孤单的那天。

虽然我可以照顾自己，但我期待有人（除了爸妈之外）对我嘘寒问暖的那一刻。

虽然我可以再过多一年的单身情人节，但我想她成为第一个与我庆祝的人。

虽然我可以过得很精彩，但我还是想要有她的参与。

虽然我可以爱自己，但却会奢望会得到她的爱。

虽然我可以肯定自己的价值，但我更希望得到她的肯定。

虽然我可以单独吃晚餐，但却想要她陪我谈笑风生。

虽然我可以享受一个人购物，但却渴望可以牵着她一起走走看看。

虽然我可以不相信真爱，但却因为希望会遇见她而动摇了。

虽然我可以在试衣时不理会别人的评语，但我却想她告诉我我穿了很好看。

虽然告诉自己“爱要耐心等待，仔细寻找”，但却很想下一秒就遇见你。

对的人，你几时才会出现呢？

Monsters of My Life

It's the "Exam occupation" at this time, bad time, stressed and yet, there is no escape from the reality, unless you really don't bother about your result. Obviously, I could not, so I have to grit my teeth and hold on to the torturous lifestyle.

My habit of doing my revision is to revise and take a small rest here and there whenever I want to. So, I love to listen to Gaga's songs and also watching clips about her songs, fan-made videos, on Youtube. And today, it occurred to me that "Hmmm, I should check out some information regarding her" and I read the description of her latest album "The Fame Monster" on Wikipedia. (Finally I searched something which is beyond syndromes or metabolic disorders...Gosh)

It seems that her inspiration of this album actually comes from her own fears, and she regards them as "monsters". In this album, she sings about her fear of the love monster, fear of the death monster, fear of the truth monster, fear of sex monster and so on.

This made me certain that she should win the "Top 100 Most Influential Persons in the World", carried out by the noted Time magazine. She is awesome! Instead of clinging to her fears and spending her time on being scared; she turns them into something useful - inspirations of her music career.

I have encountered many monsters too and like Lady Gaga, I am scared of them. I too, face the monster of truth, the monster of love, the monster of death, the monster of future, the monster of obsession, the monster of dream, the monster of commitment, the monster of loneliness and the monster of narcissism, to name a few.

Instead of scaring me away from the ugly reality of life, I hope these monsters could help me realize my insight and what I really want in my life.

未来啊，你是个怎样的未来啊？

最近的心情愈来愈差，虽然跟爸妈他们商量过我的不安及我向往的未来，但心情就没有好过。加上现在考试将近，一大堆的笔记摆在面前，把原本不好的心情变得更糟！

我向往的未来，到底能不能够实现？怎么我觉得它离我很远？其实，很多人都告诉我未来的事，有个打算就好，不要太过在意，因为今日不知明日事，所以担心也没有用。可是，我也不知道我为什么会为了它而觉得很烦。。。嗨，我不可以这样，我应该把烦恼放在一边，好好的面对考试。

加油吧！